ÿþWhy am I unable to sleep?

In the silence, I became drunk.

Again, I was alone in the damp room.

My mouth feels dry.

Why am I unable to sleep?

You are watching me, that's why.

On the bed which has its vision blurred, you sleep with your head tilted.



In the reality which we are reluctant to be aware of,

it's all just indifference.

Always, I call out,

even forgot to blink,

I was captivated by you.



I want to fall into slumber.

The only thing that scares me is waking up.

I want to forget everything.

Those are selfish words, aren't they.

I call out your name and sense your presence.

I grasped your shoulders, they had become thinner, and screamed,

feeling your fragile warmth.



Our hearts drown in deep,

in the reality which we are reluctant to know about.

Even while we bit our lips,

the tears we were trying to hold back 

knew there was no meaning.



As I stood, exhausted,

your voice from behind me

spit out reasons and the like,

and anything was alright with me.



It's just that,

you had on such a lonely expression when I saw you

and there was not a single thing I could do.

I became angry over that fact while I was dying.



You were the only person who gave me your name

Won't you stay with me like how it is now?

Yes, the one who was with me from the beginning till the end, 

my kind and gentle 0mother
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Quietly, on the white wall,

I recorded you, with dark red paint.

With your cheeks which still retain warmth,

smile silently for me to see.

Large drops of tears fall on you, pooling together with you and

became one entity.

I pull down the eye cover,

and when the warmth disappears,

I am by your side.